So TRUE!!! What do we know about each other? A lot, but never enough to make me feel that I know everything, I may never know everything... Passion, my feelings of being alone, I can not lie, that plays a big part. I must say unlike a lot of people, I did not start pushing away western women until I fully explored the idea of Rhoda in my life. It was after that point I found a lot of posts and information about the difference between western woman and women in the Philippines. I have no problem being the one who is strong in a relationship, but this has also been my downfall in past relationships (with western women). I can see the difference now. Like I said I have no real "life" to speak of. Yes this could have something to do with the fact that I am in love with Rhoda, or it could be that I have come to a point in my life that I realize I want more, I want to provide, take care of, be taken care of and so on. Could we wake up and deal with each other over the breakfast table? I have no idea. You bring up a good point, one that I have to think about and one that I have thought about. I guess that's where the fear comes in. She doesn't do anything but work and sleep, I work and sleep. We have that much in common for sure but what happens next? The conversations we have over the phone never get stale but we both look for things to talk about. A big part of that is because its so hard sometimes to get a non important "day to day" point across for both of us. We have talked about it. Both of us keep saying "I just need to see you in person". She is more in love with me than I am with her at this point. Rhoda has fallen for me and I am still holding on the reality of being so far apart and never having seen each other. Its like I cant think or say anything more until I see her. I keep thinking that I will just "know" when I look in her eyes if she is the one. Man, like I said before I am driving my self crazy thinking about this every moment of every day and I cant stop. If I could get on a plane now I would but I have to wait until August. ....... My plan... Fly to Manila, spend three days with Rhoda, if she wants then she can come to Boracay with me to go diving. After that, who knows... I should have about 2 or three weeks to spend with her and that is all I can plan at this point. You brought up a lot of good points and again I will keep it as "real" as I can without setting myself up or playing the fool to my own emotions. DAMN! you guys rock! This is what I was looking for, honest input from people who are going through what I am. Thanks again!